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Towards the end of last year my weight started hanging firmly round my goal weight. I never want to lose the fight against weight regain and maintaining my weight is one of my top most priorities. I’ve been finding it so frustrating though and honestly at the moment I’ve lost most of my motivation.
For about the first four months of this year I had been so incredibly focused on exercise and keeping myself really fit. I enjoy exercise and love how good I feel after getting my sweat on. I thought that this was going to help me keep my weight down and hopefully get it back under my goal by a couple of kilos and it’s gone in the opposite direction. I’m now a couple of kilos over my goal weight.
I have not been happy with this but since I still fit my clothes, and some of those better than when I was hanging around my goal weight, I decided it must be muscle and haven’t let it worry me too much. Then about a month ago I decided I would get back on the exercise wagon since I had let it slip a bit. The first few weeks although I was really busy I still managed to get a really good amount of exercise in.
I decided to clean up my eating habits as well because a few snacks and things I knew I shouldn’t be eating had snuck back in and I wanted to get both my diet and exercise under control to see the results in my weight I wanted. The first couple of weeks I lots about 300-400 grams in weight and I was happy but I also know it takes a while sometimes for my body to start responding.
Then in the third week I lost a kilo and this got me thinking I was on top of it all again and hey look I was halfway there already. Then the next week was the week before my period and I put on 900 grams even though I had still been eating well and exercising. From this point my weight has stayed at my usual sticking point of a couple of kilos over goal weight and I’m over it.
Last week was the worst week food and exercise wise I’ve had in a very long time I fell off both bandwagons. I did absolutely no exercise and ate basically whatever I wanted. I’m just so over trying so hard and doing everything right and not getting what I want out of it. I hit the wall after being so busy planning and executing my little guys birthday party that even though it was a short week with Queens Birthday holiday on Monday it felt like a long week. I was absolutely exhausted.
I knew that I had been reaching the point of complete exhaustion and was half expecting myself to have a breakdown but I managed to get through everything. From this perspective I think I needed last week to recouperate, catch up and just have some space in my head not being as focused as I usually am. Sometimes I think it’s important to let yourself have time like this because, before you know it, you do tend to snap out of it and when you do you really find your focus again. This is how it usually works for me anyway.
This week I thought I would get right back into exercise and eating well. I now have a cold and I’m super busy at work. I’ve organised my week with meal planning and meal preparation to make sure the eating well part is easy and can just happen. Now that I’m sick though I’m not sure how well, if at all, the exercise bit is going to pan out. I was going to exercise tonight but my nose is running like a tap and mix that with getting hot from exercise (which in my case makes it worse) and I’m not up for that to be honest. I usually lose my focus with exercise over winter and now I know why. The constant rain stops me getting outside, which I love, and the coldness makes me want to stay cuddled up in layers of lovely clothes.
I have signed myself up for the Walking Stars Half Marathon and I’m planning on doing the Skechers 12K (a new event and you get a medal!) in November this year. I know that having goals and events like this planned, signed up and paid for really helps motivate me. I’m so annoyed that I’m getting unwell and I can’t start working towards them but I guess I just have to let my body work through it and then find my focus.
I hate that I’ve fallen off the exercise wagon because I really love how I feel when I’m really fit. I know the first couple of weeks when I get back to it will be harder than usual and it’s going to take me a while to build my fitness back up to where it was before. I’m considering going out and buying some new workout clothes because I know new activewear really gives me the push I need to get my workout gear on and get it done.
My current status is that I have this annoying 2 kilos over my goal weight hanging around. I’m past the rock bottom I hit last week with eating and exercise but I’ve only climbed back on the food bandwagon this week. I try and stay positive here and be a motivation to you all but sometimes I need to concede defeat and admit that I’m struggling.
How are you going? Are you managing to keep on top of your fitness goals over winter? Comment below and let me know, maybe you can give me some inspiration.